Should I stay or should I go

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Originally Posted by Philz

I've been doing NJB, HS, and adult rec ball. Last year ... I worked my ussual 100 plus game

cut out the wreck ball and see how it goes. If that doesn't bring back the fun and you do not enjoy it then take a year off.
there is a lot of good advice above ... but the most important "I found the fun in my kit bag again, it had gone missing."
if you are not having fun and enjoying yourself then you are doing no favor to any one being out there.