baseball and girls

[joey]

Hey you know I've already been told to play softball instead at the age of 14 but I disagreed 'cause I just HATE softball, I just like baseball that's all I can't explain it. Today I'm 18 and I guess it has been a big mistake to refuse to play softball but at that time I was so angry to be refused to play in a baseball team.That's a shame,isn't it?
I'm going to university next year so I'm gonna be able to play with guys (I'll fight for it)of my age and a little older. Actually I got another problem with a real team in the town I wanted to play: they have money problems because baseball isn't that much known in France (compared to soccer, I HATE soccer)so some teams have problems ahead. I decided to find another team straightaway and I found another one, the DRAGONS, in a town not too far from me. I met a 16-year-old boy in the Internet who is a catcher and who belongs to the team as a junior (as he is pretty good, he play with seniors too)...he advises me not to integrate into the senior team (I should go there since I'm 18) because they have pretty strong guys and so he was afraid I could be injured seriously. BUT I JUST ASK TO PLAYYYYYY !!!!
It's just getting on my nerves you know, I 've been waiting for 7 years to PLAY, Just PLAY. Maybe I can play with juniors but if I do so I will no be able to participate to championships....
I'm at a loss, GOD!
I don't want to give up because it's a passion, but it's so hard to fight. "You must write to the Ligue","You need a derogation leter", "Ow God, you're too thin and not really strong enough","into the bargain you are left-handed!","what are we gonna do with THAT girl?","are you sure you don't wanna play basketball or tennis?"....etc...etc....just tiring!

I'll give you news about my fight
Are there some people in Canada or in the USA who agree to welcome me at home in order to teach me baseball (can't play very often)and to play with me?
It could be a nice gift!

see you

jojo