I went through much of the same process. I used to do this years ago (badly, as it turns out
). Then I took it up again about four years ago. I've been to camps, clinics, and all that good stuff. But I haven't moved up as fast as I originally hoped I would. I got a lot of the same stuff. I'd ask better officials how I was doing, and would get the "you're doing great, keep it up!" line that doesn't help anybody. I could give you the whole long sob story and it'd probably all sound very familiar.
Since I've been back at this a little longer than you have, maybe I can shed some light on some things that are probably in your future:
- If you keep working games, you'll improve
- You'll make plenty of silly mistakes, and learn from them
- You'll wade through coach pergutory, until you figure out how to handle them
- You'll think you're better than you are (we ALL do)
- Over time, your supervisor's story will begin to change
- You'll have a lot of fun along the way
Keep at it!